"Darling you’ve got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
If you say that you are mine
I’ll be here til the end of time
So you’ve got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?”
I am a tad confused at the moment. In the beginning I thought I knew what I wanted but that has def changed.
I told myself what does Karina want to do. Even if its crazy or very random, what do you want to do. The first thing that pops in my head is you and my head tells me that I should go for it. Why not, I think I am ready. But you have to tell me, should i stay or should i go ;) haha
Things are def looking up.
A. I got a job offer last week and I have 3 back to back interviews this week. I am really excited.
B. I also seem to have found a place to live at and I turned in my application today.
C. I started hanging out with someone who shares some of my interest and is as ambitious as I am.
Some downsides though are that
A. I hurt someone that I really cared about by saying things that I probably shouldn’t of.
B. I know longer feel comfortable living at the place I am at. Friend has been distant to me and I can’t figure out why.
Have heard this song thousands of times and just today I actually listened. “Burned out flames should never re-ignite.” I think this song has a point there.
My life is slightly a mess right now to say the least. I feel like I am studying for finals but really I am just trying to finish my thesis by Friday. I am getting closer, my mind is so busy thinking of all the things that must get done. Even contemplating pulling some all nighters and crashing in lab. I know things will only get better from here.
It’s definitely a learning experience, all of this. I just want it to be over!
Back to work I go.
Things are changing a lot. Feeling a bit better about my project. I wanted to quit yesterday. I am trying real hard not to go to my old ways. I’ve learned a lot these past months and I know what I deserve and don’t. So yea I am not going back to that. I am moving forward, letting go of the bad.