Have heard this song thousands of times and just today I actually listened. “Burned out flames should never re-ignite.” I think this song has a point there.
My life is slightly a mess right now to say the least. I feel like I am studying for finals but really I am just trying to finish my thesis by Friday. I am getting closer, my mind is so busy thinking of all the things that must get done. Even contemplating pulling some all nighters and crashing in lab. I know things will only get better from here.
It’s definitely a learning experience, all of this. I just want it to be over!
Back to work I go.
Things are changing a lot. Feeling a bit better about my project. I wanted to quit yesterday. I am trying real hard not to go to my old ways. I’ve learned a lot these past months and I know what I deserve and don’t. So yea I am not going back to that. I am moving forward, letting go of the bad.
Things are slowly starting to look up, a couple interviews tomorrow, hopefully I land something soon.
Past couple days have been pretty stressful and crazy.
I am slowly learning from my mistakes
I am trying my hardest not to be sad right now but its hard when you lose someone you cared about.
Focusing on getting it together, this month will be the biggest test. Hopefully by the begining of next month everything will be ok.
Music is my happy place
Slowly moving things into Mike’s place, why? bc I have no where else to live haha. Aiming to finish this thesis thing in a few weeks, still applying to jobs but nothing yet, I have another interview on Monday.
This has been such a stressful time, as it gets closer I become more isolated from anyone. I honestly don’t feel like hanging out with people bc I rather just be alone at times. Any free time I have I use it to be a bit lazy because that is the only time when my mind is free from all the stress I have.
Of course, I want to make plans with friends and I do but not as much. I think I will get back on my regular grind once this is all over. My living situation next month should be temporary until I finish my thesis and find a job. Luckily Mike and his mom are understanding and they are lending out there hand by letting me live with them. We shall see how that goes but technically I live there a couple times a week.